Our computer is still down, sort of. We have all the parts, and they have even been installed into the computer, but there has been little time for anything else. My dear, sweet, hardworking husband has been working crazy hours and literally has not had time to do anything but eat dinner and go to bed. They have a blessing of a job about an hour and half away that is getting them through right now, but it's been lots of work with intense deadlines, forcing the guys to work up to 15 hours a day. (That's almost two work days in one for those of you who are not good at math ;) I'm so proud of Jeremy for giving this job everything he has. He's not the "work-a-holic" type. As in...his work does not come before family. This isn't something that always happens. But, I understand, and he understands that when there are deadlines to be met, they need to met unless there is an incredible need for him at home (at which point I KNOW he would drop everything). But, praise the Lord, there isn't an incredible need, just a missing of daddy and husband. We did have a very nice and restful Sunday and I think that re-energized all of us for the coming week. I also realize that there are lots of people who HAVE to work those kinds of hours just to pay the bills, so I'm trying not to complain and to send him off each morning at 6:45 with a smile, and greet him each night at 8:00 with a kiss and a semi-clean home:-) I love Him so much, and I'm thankful he is such a hard worker and so serious about providing for our family. Lazy is not a word that come near to describing Jeremy...it's the furthest thing from him.
I usually ignore cheesy radio commercials about relationships (or really any commercial in general). But last night, driving home from our coupon club I heard something I've heard a zillion times before...but it encouraged me. It said something like..."A lot of people say marriage is a 50/50 effort. I don't know about your, but I expect my wife to give closer to 100%. There may even be times when one spouse has to give more like 150%." This made me think about us right now. I think that we are both giving at least 150%...but I know that right now, Jeremy Needs me to be as supportive as possible. I may hate (and he does too) that he doesn't get to see the girls in morning, and sometimes not even at night. I may hate that we don't get to eat together as a family right now. I may hate that all there is time and energy to do is eat and go to bed. I may hate that we don't have as much "free time" right now as normal. But...I have two options as a wife. I can either complain, grumble and make things miserable for both him and me. Or I can support and encourage and cherish the moments we have, even if it's only half an hour. I guess that's my giving that extra percent. I realize that I can have a great influence on the dynamic of our family by my attitude and actions to everyone else, the girls and Jeremy. It is so important for me, right now, to be positive, hopeful and encouraging. I think for the most part I have been...I'm sure there are times when I've given in to my selfishness and made it all about me. But, you know what...it's not all about me. Being married and loving someone is not an act to serve yourself, it is an act to serve the other person, at all times. I want to serve Jeremy the best way he needs it...and right now, this week, last week, maybe next....the best way I can serve him is to have a hot dinner ready at whatever time he makes it home, clean clothes folded (and put away), a hot breakfast made early in the morning, and a full, filling lunch for during the day. That's my job right now...that's how I can be a help-mate to my husband. How can you be one to yours today? Forget about your needs...what are His...right now. Think of one, and go fulfill it.
Hmmm...not what I meant to talk about for this post, haha. Look at the title...Oh, "Still down...but Not Out". I'm still working off my laptop, which I'm thankful for. But, it's much slower and frustrating to work on. If I have not been very good about keeping in contact with you, please bear with me. Maybe by the end of this week we'll have our computer up again. But, really...it's pretty low on the priority list right now.
The girls....let me gush about them for a moment. I LOVE my daughters. They are so precious. Yesterday was a hard day, at least after naps. They literally woke up crying and cried pretty much until bed time. Some times it was justified, but most of the time they were just fussing. A bit draining. However...little Nicole woke up this morning with an amazing sweet attitude, as did Hannah. We have had a fun day playing games, learning letter sounds (st this week)and walking around "Sam's house" (Sam's club) Nicole has been very lovey today. I can't even count how many times she's hugged, kissed and said I love you to me or Hannah today. But, I'll always take one more. I just adore our little family. They are so sweet, and I'm thankful God has blessed us with these two little girls. Who knows if we've got another sweet little girl coming, or a big rambuncious boy...can't wait to find out.
On that note....everyone wants to know...right? I don't have a date set yet for my ultrasound. Probably at the end of the month. Will let you know later.